Operation New Me

P90X Day 1 and 2

2011-10-20T11:45:00.001-07:00

I started P90X on Monday. Wow. Tough stuff! Day one was manageable and there were a ton of exercises that I just wasn't strong enough to do or my gut was too big and got in the way. I have never done so many pushups in my life!
Day 2 has turned into "Day 2, 3, and 4". I was able to do 20 minutes of plyometrics before I felt compelled to take a break. A break which lasted two extra days. I have 40 minutes left and then I can move on tomorrow. Someone please send a drill sergeant to my house and MAKE me do it.
Four days after starting this and my chest hurts and my behind is killing me. This is something I really want to finish.
I began a weight loss challenge 3 weeks ago and will be weighing in tonight so I'll have some very scary numbers to share.

Two Years Have Past?

2011-10-19T19:01:00.001-07:00

What a roller coaster my life has seen.

Major car accident
Moved twice
Divorce
Bankruptcy

Basically any of those major life changing situations have been thrown in my direction. I dealt with the issues, and moved on. I filed for divorce in January 2010. I dropped 10 pounds in what seemed like overnight. After the shock and awe wore off, I became more motivated than ever to get in the best shape of my life. For so many years I was told that I couldn't do certain things by my ex. Divorce showed me that I can do what I set my mind to and that I am in control of my own life. Over the course of those 8 months, I signed up for a few 5k races and a 10k race. I knew if I paid for the races before beginning to train, it would increase my motivation. I ended up dropped 40 pounds and reached my short term goal of 199 pounds three days before my divorce was final. Unfortunately, this past year I returned to my old ways and was at my heaviest just a few weeks ago. Ski season is coming and if I don't drop some pounds, I might just end up skiing the mountain in my panties and my ski jacket.

Back at it AGAIN!

2009-09-30T23:00:00.000-07:00

I swear my entire life has been devoted to dieting. I can't remember a time since the 5th grade that I haven't thought about eating right or feeling guilty for NOT eating right. I do well for a few months then slip away for a few. It's just an ongoing battle in my life. My addiction with food. There is no other way of putting it. I'm not really sure why I desire to eat junk especially when feel guilty afterwards.
I found it amusing to read back on my last few entries considering it has been 10 months since my last entry. My last entry I gained 2 pounds and felt terrible and I'm sure that's why I didn't continue with documenting it for the world to see.
So as of a few days ago I started Weight Watchers again for the second time. The last time I joined, my baby was just 6 months old. This time I am feeling very motivated although it is only day 3. I will do my best to try and update weekly. Gotta stay motivated somehow.

Starting weight: 231.6

I'm excited to see what my Monday weigh in brings.

Week 5 Weigh-In

2008-11-04T18:09:00.000-08:00

I have no excuses but having the Halloween candy in the house was bound to be disastrous. I did get a few workouts in but it definitely wasn't enough to cover those extra pounds I gained this week. I was up 2 pounds and had to pay two dollars. I'm frustrated because I know what I have to do, I know when I mess up, and I have guilty eating. My husband seems to really like the sweets and having a pan of brownies with chocolate frosting is just too tempting for me. I've also felt kinda emotional this week. Just really weepy for some crazy reason. I know that isn't helping the situation either.
Yesterday I hopped on the elliptical at the gym and I'm happy to announce that I burned 600 calories in 55 minutes. There was this skinny chick on the machine next to me and she was hauling booty and I made a game out of it and tried to beat her calories burned. I won! LOL
On a good note, I did have an appointment with nutritionist Pam today. It went really well besides the fact that I was having to entertain the little one at the same time. She set out a meal plan for me and we discussed goals. Everything she gave me is pretty straight forward. She said it should take me 4-5 months to get under the 200 mark if I really put forth the effort. I go back in two weeks and I'm praying for some good results.

Starting weight: 230
Current weight: 229.2
Total lost this week: Gained 2.0
Total lost for this challenge: .8
Starting weight July 2008: 239
Overall weight loss: 9.8 pounds

Week 4 Weigh-In

2008-10-28T20:40:00.000-07:00

Because I was out of town, I technically missed the week 3 weigh-in. That is why I am not posting numbers for week 3. It wasn't as bad as I thought tonight when I stepped on the scale. Yes I did gain but it could have been a heck of a lot worse. I did end up going to the gym last night and got 60 minutes of cardio in on the elliptical. I felt very good about how my diet went today. I did some strength training at home today using my elastic tubing and push ups, squats, lunges, and very little core training. Lyndsey, my two year old, did it right along with me. She helped me count my reps and that kept me very entertained. Since she was sick for a few days, I didn't want to go to the gym and risk getting other kids sick. Hopefully tomorrow I can get 45 min of cardio in. Keeping my fingers crossed for a 100% healthy kid tomorrow.

Starting weight: 230
Current weight: 227.2
Total lost this week: Gained 1.2
Total lost for this challenge: 2.8
Starting weight July 2008: 239
Overall weight loss: 11.8 pounds

Getting Back Into the Groove

2008-10-27T16:23:00.001-07:00

Being out of state for a week didn't do me any good. I have my weight in tomorrow and I am expecting to be up 3 pounds. That only means that I need to work harder this week and be more cautious of what I put into my mouth. I really need to stop and think if I am eating because something tastes good or am I eating because I really am hungry. I will update tomorrow night when I get home.
Tonight I decided to try something different for dinner. I have always heard about using spaghetti squash as a substitute for spaghetti noodles. I tried it tonight along with tomato sauce with ground turkey and it was fabulous without all the extra calories from the noodles. I didn't feel bad going back for a little bit more. I knew my family wouldn't touch it so I did make regular spaghetti for them. It was an easy substitution that I would be glad to try again.
I haven't worked out at the gym in two weeks now. Feeling like such a slacker. It sure would be nice to have some really positive stuff to write. I guess I should make that a goal of mine.

Week 2 Weigh-in

2008-10-14T20:50:00.000-07:00

I felt very unsure about how I did this week. Going into the weigh-in, I felt as though I had gained a few pounds this week which was kinda depressing. I know I did it to myself though by not eating well. I did end up doing 45 min of cardio late last night after I put my daughter down for bed. I then woke up this morning and headed back to the gym for another 45 minutes of cardio. In the end I was down .8 pounds. I can only imagine how it would have been if I hadn't done that hour and a half of exercise. I'm hoping I will stay more motivated this week. We are leaving town on Sunday and my goal is to stay on track for the next few weeks. I will end up missing my weigh in next week. I still plan on calling my weight loss coach throughout the week just for a little bit of motivation and to hold myself accountable. Yes...I do have a coach! She's the best!

Starting weight: 230

Current weight: 226

Total lost this week: .8

Total lost for this challenge: 4

Starting weight July 2008: 239
Overall weight loss: 13 pounds

BLAH!

2008-10-10T14:34:00.000-07:00

I feel like I've eaten an entire days worth of calories already and it's only 3:30pm. Gotta start thinking about more water for the rest of the day with a light...LIGHT...dinner. Just feeling unmotivated today and wondering how I'm going to do for Tuesday night weigh-in. I may feel a bit better if I hit the gym and get some cardio out of the way.

Week 1 Weigh-in

2008-10-09T12:46:00.001-07:00

I went to my meeting on Tuesday night to weight in and was very suprised with the results. I was down 3.4 pounds! Yay Me! I didn't feel like I was on track 100 percent all week long but I must have done something right. I'm still working on getting that picture up. This weeks goal is to be active whether it be on the elliptical or working around the house. So far I've done okay with my diet minus last night. I had a date night with my hubby. I know it's no excuse. Keeping my fingers crossed for next week.

Starting weight: 230
Current weight: 226.8
Total lost: 3.2
Overall weight loss: 12.2 pounds

Cleaning Machine

2008-10-01T19:33:00.000-07:00

I didn't make it to the gym today so I thought I would burn a few calories by cleaning my house. I printed out a cleaning list from the internet and kept my heart rate up by doing things around the house. I ended up getting bothe bathrooms upstairs done including the tubs. I figure it's better to be up and doing stuff than sitting on my bum and snacking.

I did pretty well on eating today too. I didn't end up sabataging myself which is what I normally do. On most occassions, I follow my diet to a t all day long and end up self sabotaging myself, eating junk, then feeling guilty about it.

I drank Herbalife tea all day long and didn't once feel hungry between meals. I'll be sure to take a "before" picture of myself. Do I really want to post it....no...but I will.

If I get asked ONE more time!!!

2008-09-30T21:16:00.000-07:00

I started a new job about a month ago. I only work part time and have been asked now 7 times, that's right SEVEN, if I am expecting a baby. The first few times I just kinda laughed it off. I've been trying for the past few months to lose some weight. I am down 10 pounds in the last three months. Yeah it isn't a whole lot but 10 pounds every three months is still 40 pounds a year. Every time I get asked in my head I laugh it off and think in my head, "Golly I did just lose 10 pounds though". So last week a co-worker and I were in the break room and this is how our conversation went after akready being asked 6 times in the past two weeks:

Co-worker: So are you expecting
Me: No I'm just fat
Co-worker: Oh, you haven't lost all your baby weight
Me: I guess not, I have a two year old though

At this point I just wanted to disappear! My jaw just dropped. How could someone say that! I don't think I look pregnant and even if I was it isn't like I'm 8 months pregnant. *sigh* It is just extra motivation to shed the pounds and that is why I have created this blog.

Today is my day one of a weight loss challenge in my town. We go every week to weigh in on Tuesday nights. If you gain weight, you pay a dollar for every pound you gain. I have found this program to be very beneficial for me so that I stay on track. At the end of 12 weeks there is a cash prize for the one with the biggest percentage of weight lost. That makes it even better.

Tonight my starting weight was 230.2

I can do this!